The Patience of Faith

Journal Entry-May 29, 2010

"Because thou hast kept the word of My patience." Rev. 3:10

"Patience is more than endurance. A saint's life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, and He stretches and strains, and every now and again the saint says-"I cannot stand it any more." God does not heed, He goes on stretching till His purpose is in sight, then He lets fly. Trust yourself in God's hands. For what have you need of the patience of faith just now? Maintain your relationship to Jesus Christ by the patience of faith. "Though He slay me, yet will I wait for Him."
Faith is not a pathetic sentiment, but robust vigorous confidence built on the fact that God is holy love. You cannot see Him just now, you cannot understand what He is doing, but you know Him. Shipwreck occurs where there is not that mental poise which comes from being established on the eternal truth that God is holy love. Faith is the heroic effort of your life, you fling yourself in reckless confidence on God.
God has ventured all in Jesus Christ to save us, now He wants us to venture our all in abandoned confidence on Him. There are spots where that faith has not worked in us as yet, places untouched by the life of God. There were none of those spots in Jesus Christ's life, and there are to be none in ours. "This is eternal life, that they might know Thee." The real meaning of eternal life is a life that can face anything it has to face without wavering. If we take this view, life becomes one great romance, a glorious opportunity for seeing marvelous things all the time. God is disciplining us to get us into this central place of power."
My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers

These words have been comforting to me the past few weeks as God has stretched and strained me and I have wondered in which direction He would send me. But as I have moved forward in faith, He has placed me in the peaceful center of His will.
My Echo showed that my heart has returned to full function! As strong as it was following chemo last year. This is a good sign and means that the damage was the reversible kind from the Herceptin and not the permanent kind from chemo. But this has led Dr. Go to decide that he wants me to complete the last 7 rounds of Herceptin. I will begin on June 8 and have a treatment through my port every 3 weeks. Most of the treatments will be during the summer, which will be good. Please pray for minimal side-effects. Last year the side-effects did not start to really get bad until around the 7th or 8th time. So I'm praying that this time they won't get as bad since I'll only have 7 treatments.
Four more days of school! Can't wait!