Journal Entry-May 2, 2010
"Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing...The nature of spiritual life is that we are certain in our uncertainty...Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life; gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day will bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness, it should be rather an expression of breathless expectation. We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God. Immediately we abandon to God, and do the duty that lies nearest, He packs our life with surprises all the time...Spiritual life is the life of a child. We are not uncertain of God, but uncertain of what He is going to do next...Leave the whole thing to Him, it is gloriously uncertain how He will come in, but He will come. Remain loyal to Him." Oswald Chambers-My Utmost For His Highest
I really needed these words this week and I hope they are a blessing to you, as well. Uncertainty is one thing that I fear, even before my cancer diagnosis. But now, even more, I need to be watching and waiting to see how God is going to move in my life and not miss any opportunities He gives me to serve Him.
I'd like to ask you to pray for the family of Pam, a friend from my oncology rehabilitation class last summer. She lost her 16 month battle with breast cancer this past week. We were diagnosed the same month last year. She was always smiling, with her bandana on her head! Her hair wasn't growing back as fast as it should've and she was desperately hoping for some! The last time I saw her, I gave her a little bottle of shampoo and a tube of mascara as she waited for hair! She said in her comment on my blog in August that she had been encouraged from the verses many of you shared with me. Thank you all as you continue to lift me up, so I can share this encouragement with others.
"We're uncertain of the next step, but certain of God."
I found your blog because I was googling an oswald chambers quote I like. I see you have been blessed by some of the same readings of his that have blessed me. I hope you will continue to be encouraged in your walk with Jesus!
ReplyDelete